3.12.2008

I want to be like my bald brother

I just got done reading my brother's blog and was inspired to write this post, because honestly, I was taken completely by surprise by not only his action (see for yourself), but by the range of emotion I'm feeling right now because of it.

Over the past few years, I've been watching my brother and this incredible spiritual journey he's been on. God has really rocked his world in a way that has caused a major shift not just in his thinking, but literally in the way he lives out every aspect of his life.

I have to say, it's the most genuine transformation I've ever witnessed. It's such a simple idea - that a person would take their convictions and actually do something about it - but it seems that so few of us in life actually do.

But, honestly I had wondered how long he would continue with his "hair system." I knew it wasn't a free service and I also new it was purely a cosmetic choice for him. And with all his recent changes in life, I thought that maybe he would stop doing it soon. Or, I thought maybe it would be something he held onto for himself (which I guess I thought he was entirely entitled to).

So after I read that he actually did it and I saw his picture, I'm now sitting here like a blubbering fool (seriously, I can't stop crying), because I am so humbled by his choice and convicted for my own lack of putting my words/thinking into action.

It's one thing to change your finances - stop buying fancy clothes, share a meal at a restaurant to save a buck, or go serve breakfast at an inner city ministry - but, to humble yourself in a way that you no longer care what people think and only what God thinks, is an entirely different level of commitment to your convictions.

So, here I am crying like a baby because I want to be like my bald brother. I want to change the world, by changing my life and my choices. I say I want to be Jesus' hands and feet, but I can't help wanting to fix up my new home with fancy bathroom fixtures and art.

It's a process, I know. I've watched my brother go through it. Ask him four years ago about getting rid of his hair and he would have responded with a stubborn "Mind your own business."

But, to me, it's simple proof of how God can truly use us "broken pots" to do his work. To be transformed to become more like Him.

I guess that's all I have to say. I'm so proud of you, Ryan! Thank you for being such an amazing example to me and to everyone around you.

1 comment:

Haffner Home said...

Very very well said, Jenni. [Ah]